The new moon was Saturday. I'm up about 5 since my recent low - thank you holiday foods. I have no regrets. To quote my nephew "get in my belly!"

start weight: 246.6
goal weight: 220 or under by June 4, 2005

Since my last entry we've jumped from Indian Summer to wet Fall, I've been plotting Duane's birthday cake and gifts, had a nice brunch wtih Mom at Alice's Restaurant, but nothing too out of the ordinary beyond that.

Had my monthly weigh in this morning and I'm gonna go over myy goal list from 9/19/04:

9/19 weight: ~250
10/20 weight: 239.8
appox loss: ~10 pounds
Ultimate objective: 210. Again, worry about that when you're 220.

Nutrional Objectives:
--Stay on Plan (Done - only faltering twice, both occurences were choices.)
--Try 1-3 new recipees each week (Bad here, I've been sticking to healthy routines but not trying new things. Need to focus more on this to avoid food boredom which has led to binge eating in the past.)
--Take lunch to work more often (Bad here as there's been no new recipee leftovers to take to work.)

Exercise Objectives:
Due to foot issues, I've been on one week, off the next as the foot repairs.
The weather has turned cold/wet, so bike rides are a thing of the past for now.
Started going to the gym approximately 3x week - weights/cardio. Haven't been for the last week due to foot fun. Next podiatrist trip is next Wednesday, so I'll visit the gym 2-3 times before that.

Spiritual Objectives:
--Listen more often.
--Rediscover the candle flame. Foster the new energy in the house.
--Read "Ramtha"

Haven't done much spiritually here. It hasn't been a part of my everyday world, like my energies have been focused on the mundane physical aspects of my life (food/exercise). I do want to "zen" now and then, and reap the benefits of the energy flows, so this is a continued priority for me.

All in all, I'm drop-dead shocked about my weight loss. I weighed myself this AM and then sat down and stared a while. Ever been in shock? When I ripped my hand open once in a high schools sporting accident I was in the ER getting sewn up and the eyes starting watering like a good heavy cry but there was no sobbing or other outward emotional purge. I just starting "leaking" as it were. Same thing here. I was very very happy, but it seemed to be on a more subconscious level. The more the weight loss sinks in, though, the more it's coming into a conscious reality for me. It really is making me happy. I'm doing it. I'm on my way.

Current weight: 250 pounds.
Next objective: 242 pounds. Dropping below 246 would mean real change.
Ultimate objective: 210 pounds. Worry about that weight when you're 220.

Nutrional objectives:
Stay on plan.
Try 1-3 new recipes each week.
Take lunch to work more often.

Exercise objectives:
This week - test the foot on the bike pedal.
1-3 bike rides per week, as soon as possible.
1-3 weight routines and moderate cardio at the gym
Morning yoga when weight bearing floor work possible, AM stretch until then.

Spiritual objectives:
Listen more often.
Rediscover the candle flame. Foster the new energy in the house.
Dust more often - stagnant energy is detrimental.
Read "Ramtha"

I've been off/on plan for the last few weeks, but my body seems to be in a reducing mood. I've not excercised with any regularity, but have done some. I've eaten around the max to just over max of my food point range. But my body is still dropping weight (granted at a microcropic rate). After 3 weeks of this off/on approach, I'm down 1.5 or so. Odd. Current weight 246.2 pounds.

I'm going to be anti-ambulatory for a while (foot fun), so it's imperative I keep my points to low/med range if I'm not going to be active. That's my goal for the next 2 weeks - low/med point range as often as possible until I can get some exercise going again.

Oh, and a BIG happy birthday to meriko ;) A true treasure in my life.

One month has passed since I pulled up my big boy pants, stuck the tip of my tongue out the corner of my mouth in concentration, and put one foot out to start this haul towards better health...

6/17 start weight: 249.9
7/17 weigh in: 247.6
That's 2.3 pounds lost.

My thoughts:
The first 3 weeks of this month were a process of learning from mistakes, identifying some patterns, and calming down about the whole weight loss thing. Smacking my demons, as it were. I may not have subdued them, but at least I've made the little buggers line up and face me so I can eye them sternly. To follow an earlier analogy, I've looked into some of those pots on the back burner, found crusty burnt bits at the bottom or some unholy concoctions, and am considering tossing out the pots rather than trying to clean them. I ate on plan really well the last week, except eating under my minimum weekly points because of food poisoning on Tuesday. My exercise patterns need work - only 1x week on average.

My goals for the next month:
Eat on plan as best I can, drink a little less so more calories come from food rather than alchohol, and increase my exercise to 3-4x week. Nothing extreme, just some bike riding, longer walking/hiking, mild to moderate weight training, stretching, saunas, continue walking stairs only (bad elevators!). Other things to keep in mind: staying fully hydrated at all times, trying more variety in foods and altering exercise programs often to keep the body in low-level shock all month. One thing I've learned about my body - in the past, I've successfully lost some weight altering my nutrition (without exercising), and by just increasing my exercise (without altering my nutrition). When I've done both at the same time, I've seen fast results, but haven't had the gumption to stick with it simultaneoulsy.

THAT'S THE NEW GOAL. BOTH. SAME TIME. FOR A MONTH.