we've been idle, as a group. me? i've been more than a little frozen. i miss my friend. i feel like i can't post here until i've written something that does his place in my heart justice. i talk about him, but i want my writing to be pristine, pure. perfect. (it's not there, yet.)
last night i arranged my photos and candles and treats and beverages in my kitchen. and then i made dilly bread. i haven't written that piece that does him justice - but it's time to break my silence. for something important. for something we talked about. for something that i'm missing talking with him about.
please. get out and vote tomorrow. i'd very much prefer it if you voted for obama/biden. if you're in california, i implore you to vote no on 8. very, very personally. it's both a simple matter of civil rights - and a matter of MY civil rights. (when you say "the gays" - please know - i am "the gays".) it's a matter of your neighbors' civil rights; your friends'. there's something about civil rights that makes them OURS. yours, mine. ours.
my dear friend khris posted a thought, photo and quote a few hours ago that i want to share with you all."I must confess, my friends, the road ahead will not always be smooth. There will be still rocky places of frustration and meandering points of bewilderment. There will be inevitable setbacks here and there. There will be those moments when the buoyancy of hope will be transformed into the fatigue of despair. Our dreams will sometimes be shattered and our ethereal hopes blasted. We may again with tear-drenched eyes have to stand before the bier of some courageous civil rights worker whose life will be snuffed out by the dastardly acts of bloodthirsty mobs. Difficult and painful as it is, we must walk on in the days ahead with an audacious faith in the future. ... When our days become dreary with low-hovering clouds of despair, and when our nights become darker than a thousand midnights, let us remember that there is a creative force in this universe, working to pull down the gigantic mountains of evil, a power that is able to make a way out of no way and transform dark yesterdays into bright tomorrows. Let us realize the arc of the moral universe is long but it bends toward justice." -Martin Luther King, Jr. 1967 Address to the Southern Christian Leadership Conference
as she says:
"I believe more than anything that we will eventually win. No matter what happens tomorrow, I'm standing with you, holding your hand. I'll be splitting time between the No on 8 & Obama offices. Keep your head up."
i'll be focused on the no on 8 offices, myself. but i'll keep my head up. i'll stand with dignity. and all the grace i can muster. you will too. i believe in you. (thank you for standing up. thank you for thinking. thank you for talking to me. thank you for inspiring me. thank you.)